Santino Rice and Designs on 73rd Street

OMG

I watched a rerun of Project Runway 2's catch up show, and Santino Rice said this:

"I do not regret what I said, but I regret if it made people feel bad."

What the f@#k does that mean? It's like saying,"I don't regret that I am about to plunge a knife into your stomach, but I do regret if it makes you feel bad."

I remember having a similar conversation with Tod. And I said that Americans have a tendency to use positive virtues, like honesty for example, to cover bad behavior.

Every sentence, every word, every action has a corresponding consequence. I think Americans have lost out on that fact because so many of their people literally get away with blue murder: OJ Simpson, Michael Jackson, President Bush.

Tod used to say whatever he wanted, and he would say afterwards that was who he was. WHO he was! He would put me down and make disparagng comments on my body and other personality attributes and then basically say he was being honest.

Well, here is honesty. The first picture is Santino. The second Tod. Don't they look alike? Same big ears, same big nose, same beard. Except that Tod's picture was professionally taken, and the real face really does look like Santino. Geez.


On a separate subject, it's funny. Sometimes I feel like my life is moving at a pace I don't understand just yet. I was watching an episode of Living with Fran and I realized it was the same one I was watching in NY. Thing is I had to run out of the door or something and I missed out on it then. I just remembered that Mr Sheffield from The Nanny came back to act as Fran's ex husband in this sitcom. And I remembered how great it was that two friends got reunited for work after all these years.

Sometimes I think if Tod wasn't acting like the paranoid drug stabilized guy that he was, we could have had something decent. But then again, I would always be Meredith Grey. And as my friends have pointed out, his girlfriend would always see me as a money grabbing FOB Asian who saw her ex CD current moregaythanstraight partner as a cash cow...which of course, as they also pointed out, means she is not living in reality.

Tragic.