Sunday, August 07, 2005

What Lies Ahead

i guess i must be improving. they say u need to hit rock bottom before you get back up.
ive relearned what it means to feel empty. like nothing means anything anymore. nothing makes sense.
my mistake was allowing myself to believe in the fairy tale. when there is no such thing.
i went against my cynicism and chose to believe in the possibilities.
but there are no happy endings. the only consolation is at least now i know for sure. thats not my destiny.
so im meant for something else, i wonder what that could be.
i hate the corporate world. i hate liars. i hate the notion of love because its all a farce.
everyone lies, cheats, everyone is out for their own selfish gain.
so why bother.
there is no meaning in it.
just a big blank numbness at the centre of my forehead.

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