Just A Thought Final: Who.

I have always been told I could write. And I have always used writing as a way to put my thoughts on the table and to iron them out. Sometimes I fail, for even words cannot capture the depth of what I feel.

Other thoughts are clear and final. Even in the blackest of emotions. So here it is. To be posted on the blog as a remembrance. Dedicated to SN, JL, IB, CW, HSM, KC, SHR, EL and T.

Just a Thought 14 August 2005: Who.

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I am a believer in the good in people.

I am a believer in the value of friendship.

I am a believer in the thickness of blood over water.

I am a believer in hope.

I am an optimist, a pessimist, a realist.

I am a thinker and a feeler.

I am creative and I am logical.

I am a soul living in God's graces.

I am a little boy that believes in fairy tales.

I am a dreamer that believes in the impossible.

But above all...

I am a believer in the power and beauty of love over all other things.

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By the time you read this,

I would be dead.

All that the truths of who I am, will no longer be.

And what I was, is forever burned into these words to remember by.

There will be no present tense. Only past.

No is, just was.

Could, would, should.

Should you mourn, do not grieve.

For at one time or other, I was all of these things.

With a view that I am worthy for happiness and greatness.

Destiny did not smile. Fate did not beckon.

And what is left is ashes for worms.

Goodbye. Apologies.

And know you were truly loved by one so undeserving and empty.